Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
I got hit on today. At least I think I did. It was extremely creepy. This guy next to me was talking about how he's going shopping tomorrow (for clothes). What kind of guy gets excited about that? I don't even get excited about that. In fact, I dread it. But anyway then he mentions that he's going to go to
Hottopic as well. And I happen to say, "Urg I hate that store."
"WHAT? How can you hate that store?" (Obviously he's kinda a wanna-be)
"Because its gone all pink and cartoonish thats why. It totally sucks now. I mine-as-well shop at (insert your local pink/prepish/cartoon store you hate here)."
"Yeah well, the lingerie there is hot. You should wear it take a picture, and send it to me."
"ew, no."
"Aww come on Duzzie, you know you want me. You can hardly contain yourself."
"*sarcastically* Yeah G, thats it. I want you so bad."
For like, the next few minutes he kept on saying stuff like that. Till finally he gave up and said 'Fine, live your life in denial.'
Aside from the extreme creepy and digustingness it was a lil flattering.
Maybe I'm not so ugly after all ^-^
Saturday, April 26, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
Remember when I was talking about making my own clothes? Well, Im still planing on doing that, but until I get confident enough with my new friend Mr. sewing machine (which sadly I do not yet own, so I'll have to hand sew or go to grandma's house and use hers....)I'm just going to alter clothes. Like I have this old plaid (grey, dark purple and black plaid) and giant on me shirt. I snipped and (hand) sewed it a bit, now match it with a black tank and a pair of dark jeans and wala! A mix between old school grunge and (insert your favorite word for dark style here).
Lol, I'll have to dig up a digi cam so I can post my future creations!
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
Wow, ok so I got off the computer and went to bed early last night (I keep falling asleep in my
4th block class) and I think it did more damage then good. Sure I didnt fall asleep in school, but that could be because of the 40 extra minutes of sleep I got this morning.
My alarm goes off, I grab the remote and turn it off. Then I lift up my head and...My eyes must be blury. Does that say 6:58? CRAP! It does, it does. Somehow, without my knowledge, I fell asleep right after turning off my alarm. Crap. My bus comes in 10 minutes!
No need to fear, T calls me 10 minutes later and offers to druve me to school! No. That stupid pervert pig. I rode with him yesterday and now people think were dating! EW! I cant let that continue. Besides, how is he supposed to get the hint that I hate him if I keep getting him to give me rides?
Luckily Cowgirls mom is able to drive me.
Yeah, some other stuff happened....involving boys. But you dont want to hear about that, now do you?
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
Nothing has happened. Nothing worth noting at least. Well, other then the fact that
I've happened upon a new series. its called
The mortal instruments. And the first book is called
The city of bones. Its an
awesome book. And, even though
im only 1/3 through the book, its one of my favorites. Though I
dont quite get the "sexy" bit. (on the cover it has a
quote from the author (of the tithe series) Holly Black "Funny, dark, and sexy. One of my favorite books." I
havnt come across anything "sexy" about it...but then again, I am only 1/3 the way through.
Anywho its about this girl
whos witnesses a murder that only she can see. The next day her mother
disappears and shes almost killed by a
Ravener (some sort of lizard demon).
Yeah yeah, I know. Another book with myths, demons, wizards, and such. But hell, they are addicting.
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
Ok, I am so sick of not being able to find clothes that I like. Or clothes that fit right. And if I do happen to find them they are on the
Internet, and I
dont like not being able to try something on before buying. So I have decided to learn to make my own clothes! I used to make them for my doll when I was
lil. (She was the cutest thing. Long black hair, black eyes. She had
porcelain face, hands, and feet while the rest of her body was soft and stuffed. My mom thought she was creepy, but let me keep her because my great grandmother had given her to me.)
So I figure all I have to do is make the clothes bigger. But I'll probably start with just altering clothes and sewing other items before I move on to making my own....also I should buy a sewing machine. Sewing by hand would take to long and probably
wouldn't last.
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
Sorry I
haven't been on in a while.
Ok, so time to rant the rants that have been stuck inside for a week (
scrunched down to about 10 sentences..
urgs do not count).
URG! I cannot stand Isa! Not only is her personality extremely annoying, but she has such a cute body! Shes so little and petite, and she keeps hanging all over D! (Not that D is my boyfriend or anything....*sigh*)
Urg! I cant stand her!
And that stupid poser! Can she not see I hate her?
And I did get a lower grade then my partner! WHAT THE HELL MAN?!
Woo! That is some
talent their. And even though I
didn't get all the rage out, I still feel much better. See ya tomorrow!
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
Sorry. My internets been down. Well my projects were due today. Am so pissed though. I do all the work, but then the teach has the nerve to ask if I actually did anything because he thinks my lazy partner did it all!!! WTF!!! If my grade ends up lower then hers so help me I will kick his fat ass.
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
Lol. Ok just got back from seeing "
Horton hears a who" Cute movie btw. But something funny happened just before the movie.
So me and Cowgirl get to the movies, pay for the tickets, then she went to the bathroom. She comes out and we buy the snacks. We walking up to give the guy our tickets when I ask "You got your ticket?"
"Of course" she replies searching for her ticket. "Crap, I cant find it!"
"What!? Ok well were did you put it?"
We go on for 10 minutes or so talking about where it could be and looking. The bathroom (I suggest it fell out of her pocket and she flushed it by accident), the ground, where you buy your tickets, her wallet, her pockets, and her purse (though she refuses to believe that it could be in her purse or wallet because she didnt go in there after she paid). So she goes to buy another one.
"You know as soon as you buy it you'll find it"
So we talk to the ticket guy (who is very cute by the way) and make fun of Cowgirl when he says, "You could have just told me you lost it, I would have let you in anyway."
So we get in the movie theater, me still making fun, when I finally convince her to search her purse.
"Im telling you its not in here," she says digging through the bag, "I would have remembered if I put it...." She pulls out the ticket. I start laughing my ass off. "Told you! Omg! So freakin new it!"
So we start talking about what to do with it. Get a refund, sell it, or ask that cute ticket guy to join us. We both new we wouldnt do it but still. So finally I called T and C. Stupid T was in columbus and C wouldnt come either because I had asked him or his mom wouldnt let him....I think it was cause i asked. lol anyway (I left out a bunch of stuff btw) it was really fun.
Friday, April 11, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
I don't think I have ever been more pissed in my life then I am now...
Ok no that's a lie. But this is in the top 5!
Remember my project? Well I was supposed to ride home with Chelsey so we could work on the project but the hoe bag blew me off! Again! And she
didnt bring the info I needed like she had been promising all
fucken week! I cannot afford to fail this project. Hell the only reason I have a partner is because I hate(cant without freaking) speaking in front of crowds.
Im tempted to just do the
project myself and tell Mr B. that Chelsey
didnt do shit! But then, I'd have to present by myself. Well, I could just suck it up and let her and Vin get credit too. But this would be the last time! Damn my shyness! Damn it to hell!
But if I
dont get in contact with her by the end of tonight I'm just gonna do it myself. As to whether or not I'm gonna let them get credit for this I
havnt figured that out yet. But it looks like they're going to.
Thursday, April 10, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
Nothing has happened. Nothing. Well, nothing worth blogging about anyway.
My self-esteem is back down to its normal self, and I'm disgusted with myself *she says while stuffing her face with marshmallows* So much for getting myself ready for bikinis. Well I'm going to go running every day this summer! Since I'm going to my dads for a few weeks right after school lets out I can ease myself into it (hes got a treadmill). That way I wont be so out of shape and embarrassed when I have to go running on the roads back home. And I'm gonna do my weights again. I absolutely can not stand my...the part of the arm after the shoulder and before the elbow. And the elbow down is really nothing but skin and bone.
I tell ya my body is out of
whack! None of my body parts seem to match. Its like I was made from the leftovers of an
anorexic and a chubby girl. But I am determined to make my body match itself by summers end!
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
Dear annoying kid who sat behind me in the auditorium,
Your sitting right next to your friend, there is no need to shout what you want to say. Nor is there a reason for you to push your feet against the back of my seat and pretend your running. And we are both watching the same play so stop pointing out what they're doing on the stage. Stop asking me whats happening or why they said that, this is my first time watching too and I am not psychic. And I swear if you don't quit making yourself laugh so hard and loud I will turn around and smack you.
With annoyance,
Duzzie<3
Today was so blah. It went by so fast. Well, except for the 45 minutes we had to watch the play that theater club made. That seemed to take forever. But the rest went buy fast.
In Spanish I was so transfixed on the boy in front of me (thinking not looking), in English me and Poser were busy picking out new hair colors on line, History we had a debate that I really got into, and Chemistry....lol I remember laughing alot.
Zak is really starting to piss me off. I told you about him and Jess right? (How he's so desprate for a girlfriend but the one girl who actually thinks hes hot and suddenly he decides to get picky! Bull fucken shit man. He made Jess feel sooo bad!)
Anyway he's totally turning into a poser. A "steryotipical" emo/goth. He even gets mad when we make fun of Dyne for pouting (we called him emo today cause he was pouting and Zak got all mad and said that we were waaay off on what "emo" was). God he is sooo confused on what the true meanings of those words are.
But he is still acting all desprate and needy and he is flirting with girls constantly. They clearly have no intrest in him. Everyone can see, they're not even nice to him. But he is to stupid too know when to shut up and walk away.
Monday, April 7, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
If anything this blog proves how fickle I am. Remember it was just about a week ago I was talking about Vin. Yeah my fascination is soo over with him. (lol now its moved onto someone(s) else).
Funniest thing happened in Chem class. We were testing out what colors different chemicals turned when exposed to a flame when my
brilliant partner gets an idea.
"I wonder what will happen," she says as she pulls out a bottle of perfume, holds it up to the flame and squirts it. Right before she did it I threw a notebook at the back of this kids head. And he turned around just in time to see her and jump out of the way.
It was in slow motion. Him jumping out of the way as the flames went shooting across the table.
Luckily there was nothing there. So nothing really got damaged.
Her face was priceless and I couldnt help it. I was laughing so hard I fell off my stool. She got yelled at for about 20 minutes about responsibility and how your supposed to think before you act. Oh, and she also has to clean the lab for a week.
But it was still really funny.
Friday, April 4, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
Ever have a breakdown? Today was just such a crappy day, and I dont know why. First my heart felt nauseous (yes my HEART) then it felt like someone was squeezing it. And for no reason I can think of I just started crying. So I tried to figure out why I was crying but I couldnt. Oh, but I did manage to make myself feel worse.
Yup, like my new found confidence? Yeah, its not. I realized that I've just been surrounding myself with people that remind me of my old school. So its not confidence, its familiarity.
But seriously any clue as to
what would make a heart feel nauseous?
Thursday, April 3, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
Its so weird. Just yesterday I was the same me I always was: Shy, quiet, not really looking at anyone. But today, today I was talkative, friendly, louder then normal, and smiling more. Its soo weird. I dont know what happened, but I can actually
feel myself becoming more self-confident. I mean, Im definitely still shy and quiet. But there was definitely an improvement over yesterday.
The only thing I can think of that might have had some affect is that yesterday I was partnered with this one guy in spanish. He could have had some sort of affect. Or maybe Im finally starting to accept this school...or both.
Oh and btw Vin does have a girlfriend. *sigh* oh well. Im kinda over him anyway.
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
URG! My favorite pants just RIPPED! WTH?! Everyone was telling me not to buy the "angel" brand jeans because they rip so easily. But they were soo soft I didnt listen. Plus I've had them for 3-4 months! But then I squated down to pick something up and I hear this ripping sound. So I look, BIG HOLE! Right in my CROTCH! WWWWHHHHHYYYY!?!?!?!
Sorry, just needed to rant a tad bit about that.
Dear Bloggie,
Ok I have a question. And with my extreme lack of experience with guys I could use the advice.
How can you tell if a guy likes you or is just being friendly? Because up till now I've jut thought he wanted to be a friend. Then Cowgirl brought it to my attention that he might like me. And if thats true, I dont want to lead him on. I mean, I
did like him in the beginning of the year. But I talked myself out of that months ago (I do this thing were I can convince myself that I dont really like someone because I dont think I have a chance with them. Yes, my self-esteme is extremely high isn't it?).
The symptoms: 1. Hes constantly bugging me to come over to his house then acts sad the next day after I didnt come over.
2.Gave me his Instant messenger sn about a month ago so I would im him.
3.Gave me his phone number today so I would call him.
4.I think Ive caught him staring at the "twins" a couple times. (But hell, they
are eye catchers)
5.Yesterday he came up behind me grabbed my shoulders and started shaking me shouting "EARTH QUAKE". Then spun me around till I fell and laughed hysterically.
6. Is always making fun of me (not in a
mean way)
I think he likes Sarah not me. Or maybe he's one of those self proclaimed "Nice guys" who only pretend to be your friend...damn
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
You'll never guess what happened today! So we got a chance to work on our history projects in class today and Vin came over to join our group!
URG! WHY!? (yeah I know your probably all confused thinking "But isn't that a GOOD thing?") It
shoule be but....
I completely froze! I didn't know what to say or where to look. And my plan to ask my partner (Chelsey) if she had a boyfriend (to see if she and Vin were dating) was totally ruined because of that!
But there's some good news! Chelsey asked Vin if he had a girlfriend! Ha ha! Thank you Chelsey! Now I don't have to be sneaky!
Of course you knew there was gonna be bad news.
His answer was so low I couldn't catch it! But I think he said "I dunno, probably." Probably? Probably! What kind of answer is that?! I hope I heard wrong and he said no. Well luckily (and unluckily) I'll get/have to spend time with him because of the project. So hopefully Chelsey can get him to talk about it again and I can find out for sure.
But what if he does have a girlfriend? Aw hell,
s'not like I would have done anything if he didn't. I'm too shy, it sucks!
Oh, on a slightly more embarrassing and happier note everyone noticed the eye crap (I put on some eyeliner and mascara. I've never worn it before). They said it looked cute. I've never worn anything before cause my face has that natural color thing going on. So it kinda looks like I'm already wearing make-up, so I've never had a reason too. But the black eyeliner and mascara really makes my blue eyes stand out more, so that's good.
....I wonder if someone else noticed....:P
Poser if very annoying. This break made me forget why I hate her so much. But it all came rushing back today.
(Poser:)"
Ooooo!
Duzzie's wearing make-up! She must have a new boyfriend!" Now I must go and tell the whole school and embarrass the crap outta her!
(
Duzzie thinking and
clenching fists:) Must resist urge to strangle Poser.
Now with new songs so you dont get as bored as quickly