Sunday, November 30, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
*sigh* lol well, a week ago I went to see twilight....Yes im going to see the second, yes it was good (if you didnt read the book...if you did...well you'll be dissapointed). Sorry I havnt written in a while, the only free-time I have had has been used for job searching and talking to my bf. Yup, me and my Best friend are taking a road trip (or a plane trip...not sure which yet) to Cali for the summer. Our end of jr year adventure. You know, before sr year when all fun remain from jr year is stripped because we'll be so busy cramming, working, college hunting, and takoing standarized tests...not to mention our college courses we're taking, we will hardly get to see each other....lol ok sorry for the short and badly typed post....be on again when i can
Monday, November 17, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
Random: Im putting some papers into my backpack just outside the library and this girl comes up...never seen her before in my life, starts talking to me about a class shes not even in...
lol, then I get to my car, battery is dead. So im sitting inside the car trying to stay warm when this guy who looks really familiar walks up.
taps on my window "you need some help?"
I tell him whats up then he does some voodoo magic (lol Im car illiterate so its magic to me) and WALA it starts again.
"Your in my Psych class, right?"
huh, I didnt think anyone noticed me in that class.
Going to see TWILIGHT thursday for the premire! WOOT! Then I'm gonna spend the night at rachels (we're skipping school friday since the movie is at midnight and going out instead). Lol I cant wait! I just REEEEEEEEAAAAAAAALLLLLLYYYYY hope they dont Phuck up the movie! (like they did with Blood and Chocolate, and so many other awsome books)
Monday, November 10, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
Omg my day was GOOOD! I have no clue why, but i was literally GLOWING today I was so HAPPY.
lol anyway me and my bf were having a conversation about going swimming...See, he cant swim well, and im even worse then him. But he really wants to go out in the ocean (which im deathly afraid of) with him. I kept comming up with reasons why I shouldnt (Tsunami's, poisonous things, sharks, ect) Well then we got into this "argument" like thing.
Him:Besides,, even if you do go under I'll save you.
Me:But you can hardly save your own ass, let alone mine too!
Him:No, I'd save you. I'd keep you up for as long as i could.
(it when on like that for a while...then we started arguing about how i wouldnt want him to save me (but he countered with the fact that i would save him instead of me). So I started thinking...If he died saving me I would feel like shit cause youknow....it was to save me. But if I made him live and i died then HE would feel like shit cause there was something he could have done. And I wouldnt want him to go through that.....So...in this crappy situation....which would be the better option? (asides the obvious that I would want us BOTH to live)
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
Not sure, but the closest thing i found to my "momentarily paralyzed" state is the hypnagogic form of sleep paralysis. This occurs when Atonia (its when you brain causes your muscels to relax and your unable to move them. Normally this only occurs when you fall asleep (so you dont thrash about and hurt yourself in your dream)) occurs when your awake.
This is coppied from the website:
An episode of paralysis may cause you to be unable to speak. It can also make you unable to move your arms and legs, body, and head. You are still able to breathe normally. You are also fully aware of what is happening. An episode can last for seconds or minutes. The episode usually ends on its own. It may also end when someone touches you or speaks to you. Making an intense effort to move can also end an episode. Sleep paralysis may occur only once in your life. It may also happen many times in a year.
It can be very scary when you are unable to move. You may feel anxious and afraid. Some people also hallucinate during an episode. They may see, hear or feel things that are not there. They may even think that another person is in the room with them. These
hallucinations may also appear without the sleep paralysis.
Sleep paralysis tends to first appear in the teen years. It then occurs most often when you are in your 20s and 30s. It may continue into your later years. It is not a serious medical risk.
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http://www.sleepeducation.com/Disorder.aspx?id=34)
This would explain the voice, touch i felt (that i didnt mention cause it was a tad...embarressing), and feeling of someone elses presence in the room.
Dear Bloggie,
*shivers* Ever not been able to move your body?
Last night I was talking on the phone when suddenly it felt like someone grabbed me from behind. I heard words but I couldnt quite make out what they were. (since I was on the phone I dismissed it as something England had said to me) They held my arms to my sides and my legs in place. I knew no one was in the room with me, but I still wanted to turn my head, just to reassure myself. Only I couldnt.
I couldnt even get my arms or legs to move. Nothing was working. I felt pressure like someone was pressing down on me.
I started to freak a little. I mean, if you suddenly couldnt move any part of your body, wouldnt you freak a bit too?
Finally (after what felt like and hour but was really more like 5 minutes) I was able to move again.
Apparently I hadnt been talking during this ordeal because my boyfriend (who I was on the phone with) asked me what was wrong.
I told him and all he said was "Who was it?"
It struck me as odd that he would ask who instead of what (like what do I think had cause it or somthing).
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
First I just wanna say i say the most brilliant pair of eyes today! This guy who sits behind me in math class (for...the past year now?) has these stunning crystal blue eyes. And they really pop to! I wanted to steal his eyes and give him my dark blue ones. I mean, dark hair and crystal blue eyes? dont you think it makes a better combo then dark hair and dark blue eyes?
I had an AWSOME day today. ok not really, it was just funny. You remember the guy afraid of lesbians? Well me and lyse found him again, lol we ran up behind him and tried to get his attention. I was trying so hard to hold in a laugh my stomach hurt (we've been doing this everytime we see the kid...) Lol so what I thought was the best was after lunch I found him again.
So I ran up and put my arm around his side and looked up at him as we were walking (Lyse was on the other side just watching to see what i would do) And I said "My clock is ticking"
HIm: What clock?
Me: My biological clock.
(His eyes got really big and then he looked to the hand that was around him)
Still me: And I've been thinking.....Would you...(I looked up at him and tried my best to look cute. HAHA After his eyes got huge and he got really nervous. startted stamerring and such (again trying sooooooo hard not to laugh)Would you mind......(long...5-10 second pause)....if I adopted you?
His face was stunned. So i just laughed, gave hima hug and said: Ok, see ya later son! (lyse did the same thing only she kissed him on the cheek.). I know this is cruel...but I cant help it. He is just so funny.
I almost feel bad for this.....almost.
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
WARNING!!:
The following content is (in most's opinion) very funny. But some (especially those of close minds) may find this....not funny.
ok cool.
It has come to my attention (through the constant mocking of my boyfriend) of why everyone (and by everyone i mean half my school (give or take)) thinks im a lesbian. I either end up in situation that (if looked at the wrong way) can be seen as lesbianish. Also I dont think that often before I speak, so sometimes what I say ends up sounding WAY worse or different then I meant it.
Example 1: Today I was talking to my boyfriend on the phone + cleaning my room and I shouted "I FOUND IT" When asked what I replied "Lyse's bra that she was looking for".
(Explanation(what really happened): We were skipping a stupid assembly at school when my bra snapped. Luckily lyse had an extra in her gym locker and she let me borrow it)
Example 2: well...I would tell you but I still would like to keep this blog a secret. So let me just say it had to do with us (my friend and I) changing into our gym uniforms, her complaining she had no butt, me (forgetting I was half naked) showing her some exercises to help tone her butt and then her decidding to tell ppl she saw me on all 4s half naked cause she liked the looks on their faces. Lol...My boyfriend LOVES making fun of me for anything like this...-_-.
Oh, lol did I mention the guy who was afraid of me because he thought I was a lesbian? Its like he thought I was gonna take his backpack or something (he kept inching it away from me)
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