Thursday, October 30, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
OMG! People at school are fucking MORONS! Ok, so I usually leave at 11 (thats when my last class at the highschool ends, but then some days i have college well today i didnt) but I decided to stay after for lunch. Then after lunch I followed my one friend to his class (out of pure boredum). Well the first moronic thing that happened was people were amazed that I was in their class "omg someone new in class, but shes not new here" (wow BIG effin deal). But what REALLY PISSED me off was I was talking to this one girl I havnt seen in ages and she asked me about my bf. So I showed her a pic and this racist ass whole comes up behind us and grabs the pick. (go ahead and guess what he said) And loud enough for the whole school to hear. So i turn and glare, "yeah, so?" Well me and him get in this argument. Now he thinks im tainted or whatever, its a load of bull all the same. But him and his gay ass friends, not only wouldnt stop harrasing me about his race, but wouldnt stop asking how big his dick was and what we've done. Its none of your fucking buisness! Back off bitches, I'll date whoever the fuck I want to date. And you narrow mind wont alter my thoughts one bit.
Go ahead and live in a cloud your whole life, I cant wait for it to bite you in the ass.
What is wrong with people? None of MY FRIENDS give a fuck that we're an innterracial couple, but MOST of HIS friends do. *sigh* as far as the world has come we really havnt moved forward at all.
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
I cannot stand this guy. He's like phone stalking me! He wont leave me alone and he sends like 10 msgs a minute to me. So I finally tell him to leave me alone (because ignoring his txts isnt working. This has been going on for about 2-3 weeks. Its only today that its gotten really really bad)
and he gets all pissy "WYF iz wrong wit u y do u hte me" n crap like that. Calling me a prude, a tease, a whore and so on. (I have never done anything with this guy. I dont even know how the hell he got mu number in the first place.)
SO after about 7 messages (that i sent, nicely asking him to leave me alone) I start to get pissed. So I told him he was a dick and a small one at that (I was refering to how tall he was). Well then he gets all defensive "itz not tht small, how wod u no prude"
Again I tell him to leave me alone. He just yells some more "I hpe u get rapped u kunt" Urg, it went on like this for about 40 minutes (all the while Im trying to find out how to block his number. Why must they make it so difficult to find out?)I just hope he FINALLY gets it. But with my luck I'll end up running into him tomorrow at school and he will start up again. Hopefully he dosnt. And hopefully he wont start again from another phone.
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
I HATE BOREDUM! I really do, its stupid and pointless and completely wastes my time. All I'm trying to do is kill some time until I get tired so I can go to sleep (only to waste more time). Maybe I wouldnt be so bored if he called like he said he would, but no, guess he is still grounded. Not only that, but now I feel like such a fucken, pathetic, loser now for clingy to my phone all day not wanting to miss it when he DID call.
Why isnt anyone online? How dare they be out living lives (or sleeping) or doing anything away from the computer while my life is being wasted waiting for tomrrow to come?
*sigh/lol* Thanks for listening to my rantings. Haha, I kinda sound self-absorbed there dont I? (The last line of the rant was full of sarcasm I hope you know. Thats what I hate about computers, you can have such a hard time hearing the emotion people put into their words.)
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
Well im bored out of my mind. I was thinking of going to D's...but he left a comment last night that..well I think I might have accidently done something to let him think I LIKE him...which I dont. So untill i know for sure (or can fix this) I wont be going over there for a bit. So then I was going to clean my room and gather all of the clothes that I dont want anymore and go to the resale store thats 10 minutes from my house. If they bought them then i would have some cash and probably buy some clothes there (they sometimes have REALLY cute stuff). But then mom had to call and ruin it "do the dishes, take our the trash, and clean your room! If its not done by the time i get home your in for it!" Urg! Damnit mom. I was GOING TO! But now that I've been TOLD to do it I wont....I dont know why, its just how I am. I dont even mean to do it. Like I could be cleaning, but if mom (or anyone) tells me to do it all of a sudden im EXTREMELY lazy. And I dont feel like doing it any more, so I sit and watch tv or somthing....God, what is it and disobeying (the cleaning) authority?
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
*sigh* i got a (just barly)C- on my exam...but whats really sad is that it was one of the HIGHESt grades on it...even the teacher did bad on it (he got a c or somthing on it). Luckily this grade will be dropped so long as i get at least bs on my next two exams. But this WAS the hardest of them all (according to everyone who ever took the test, including the teachers and past students.)
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
MMMMMM! I have awsomely big and terrible news! But I cant say. Well I can. But with my luck it will jynx it and it wont happen. Its awsome news but at the same time its bad news too. *sigh* i dunno. All i know its that now i DEFFINETLY need to get a job now. you know, to help. MMM, I should be able to say more by sunday.
Well nmy dog got back from the groomers....she looks HORRID! What did that lady do to my precious Sasha? Oh, and that stupid rat dog thing has flees, which probably means skamp and sasha have flees....So now we have to bomb the house. -_- Greeaaat.
Monday, October 20, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
Lol ok so I get to school, study for about an hour then head to my class...Its cancled. WTF? I worried myself silly over that damn paper and class is CANCLED! Well at least i can edit it some now....So I had to find something to do for 2 hours until my next class started. No one was home so i couldnt call anyone...and Englands grounded so no txting. Then I get to Pysch and I only stay for 30 minutes (you can leave once you finish the exam) so then i have to find something else to do for an hour and a half until my ride gets there. (Im not allowed to drive to college till i get more experiance...but how am I supposed to get the experiance when i cant drive? Huh mom?) And I REFUSE to ride the bus again. Its all jery and bouncy. I hit the window a few times and fell off my seat because of that. Plus it costs 6 bucks a trip. Screw that man, Its cheaper to buy gas (O.o sad when gas is cheaper then bus fair).
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
^^ Well I was going to write my English paper and study for my mid term this weekend, honest i was, but something came up....I had to baby sit my lil bro saturday, but thats not what I'm talking about.
Because his grades have been doing so well England got one weekend of punishment!! So i talked to him the entire weekend (no sleep...maybe an hour or two all together). I JUST hung up with him (and he called friday after school) so now im kinda screwed. I mangaed to type my paper in between sentences (but it took me like 5 hours because i kept typing what WE were saying instead of my paper) and now im trying to study. But I cant get my mind to focus for more then 4 minutes without it wandering back to him. Grr, why did you have to say "I might be able to call you again in a little bit"? if you had just said goodbye then i wouldnt have this (most likely) false hope distracting me. *Sigh*
Mid term tomorrow....please let me pass.
If its anything like my english class is going I should. (I got a B on the first paper and an A on the second. And I got a B on the first pysch quarter term so hopefully theres a patter in this). Though i probaby jsut jinxed myself....CRAP! I think i had math and envi homework too! Grr....*sigh* hopefully i get to school early (lately Ive been walking into the building just as the bell rings)
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
WOW I am BORED! Sure I could be studying for my psych midterm or writing one of my papers that for english or pysch. I suppose I could even do my envi or math homework. But I dont want to. Everyone (cept D and E) are in school. E is with her boyfriend (who after all this crappy drama) is now back with, so we'll leave them alone. And i dont know if D is even out of bed yet.
God! its been forever since i've heard Englands voice (lol his real name is actually something thats in England....lol can you guess what it is? No its not ben). I miss him so much. Why'd you have to go get grounded?
*sigh* I think I'll go bug D. if hes not up by now I'll just dump water on his head. I mean its 1:43pm already. NO ONE NEEDS THAT MUCHH SLEEP.
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
Job hunting today. Two new stores just opened up not far from my house. Im gonna go see if they'd hire a teenager....They cant be too picking being new and all right? I hope so. I DESPRATLY need a job. Im down to my last bit of cash and my gas tank is on low (not to mention the repair costs to my car and all my clothes are too big on me now. Apparently I've lost bm...weird huh? i havnt been eating different....(and i wasnt fat to start with)...maybe its cause i've been more stressed lately. You see when im stressed I workout. It calms me).Anywho back to the job market. Wish me luck!
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
I dont see why people like relationships. What is the appeal? I personally cant stand it. I feel vulnerable and nervous. If me and hi get in a fight I become physically ill. He's always creeping into my thoughts (somtimes making it hard to focus). My heart jumps whenever I hear his ring tone and I cant go a day without talking to him (or hes on my mind even more). I care if I look good now and want to be as pretty as can be. And im always afraid that he's gonna cheat on me or break my heart.
And as crappy as this all is I cant just quit. Its too hard.
Relationships suck.
Dating sucks.
It all sucks.
Friday, October 3, 2008
Dear Bloggie,
I had court today. The judge was very nice, she said I could keep my licence and (so long as I didnt get into any trouble or get any tickets) would wipe this lil accident from my record. THANK YOU! But now, just as I was getting over my fear of tire squealing, I'm afraid to drive again. Just because it would be my luck to get a ticket of some sort...*sigh* Oh and the repairs to my car cost $463. Not bad, not good either but it was cheaper then what i was expecting. *sigh* so Now I need a job more then ever. Im going to apply at this new building of stores that just went up. Only a few of the stores are already open but still. And its only 5 minutes from my house.
Wish me good luck job hunting.
Now with new songs so you dont get as bored as quickly